To Dad,
Heart burned with the sadness I'd ever tried to break my father's heart~I admitted that I am saying I had ever tried whether it was unconsciously or purposely.
I remembered I was so rebellious & stubborn in secondary school time. It still fresh in mind, I recalled the moment I was in 15 & 16, I fall in a telephone habit with two guys. The first guy was my senior, another guy was same age with me.
It was either happy or enjoyable time, or it was just a habit for me to instantly picking up the phones and chatted with. For my dad, everytime he saw me in the phone, it was a waste of time to act like I was in love with someone who might admired me? I did not realize that I just loved to hang around with the phone to chat with the guy for school gossips. It was me, addicted in phone ringing.
And what reason which make me ending the phone chats, I remembered it was just a cool one! The guy had another girl who might be more adorable? I don't ever want to know because I was simply unconsciously addict in phone calls, no others meaning.
So, when it came to started another phone chats? It was in my 16. A guy who started liking me since Form 1, he said. I still DO not believe that someone likes me since Form 1 so it means 4 years he had been liking me. So? In 16, he tackled me because of what? But, he was the One I ever had feelings. Isn't it? However I hurt him the most and I regretted to. So, what it related to my dad?
Dad, sorry! I had hurt you the the most! You had a daughter who liked to hanging around with the damn phone but you never cut the line up because of waking me up for a new starting day to school. Oh, sorry to tell you guys that at my 16, I stayed in a small hut beside of my parent's house for just an experience of staying alone. The hut at that moment was rented by my dad for storage purpose of the business of sundry shop.
Dad, have a happy Father day. THANKS FOR THE LOVE YOU LIGHTING UP MY LIFE WITH CANDLE. I'D NEVER KNOWS THAT YOU LOVED ME WITH SO LOTS OF FORGIVENESS!
A warming cuddle froms,
Sheau Wen